The Princess Diaries

Everything's gonna' be alright. From Bob Marley and the Wailers' CD Legend I have learned that these words hold meaning for every area of life. In life we must realize what it is that really matters because otherwise we will get caught up in wasting our energy on things that don't hold all that much importance. If things aren't going perfect (and they usually aren't) then it is up to us to decicde what it is that we are going to spend our precious time and energy on. We were at church and my friend was completely stressed out and really angry because she had just had a huge sleepover and the girls weren't playing by her rules at the party. When we got to church she was at a point where she was easily aggrivated by almost everyone and everything. I told her that in the great scheme of things that it really doesn't matter that her party didn't go exactly the way that she wanted,it wasn't that important; but when we were singing our songs I turned my head and whispered, "but this, this is very important." Prioritize, minimize, and figure out what it is that is worth your energy. We're already so low on energy and time anyway there is no point in wasiting it on things that aren't important.

My feet is my only carriage,
So Ive got to push on through.
But while Im gone, I mean:
Everythings gonna be all right!
Everythings gonna be all right!
Everythings gonna be all right!
Everythings gonna be all right!
I said, everythings gonna be all right-a!
Everythings gonna be all right!
Everythings gonna be all right, now!
Everythings gonna be all right!

So, woman, no cry;
No - no, woman - woman, no cry.
Woman, little sister, dont shed no tears;
No, woman, no cry.

hey,
the reason that I have not written in a while is because I have felt that I have not had anything profoundly moving or thought prevoking to say. Unfortunately for you, that is exactly what I have decided that the topic for this entry will be. Are you running on empty? Sometimes all we need is a fill-up, and I have the secret. If you act happy energetic and bubbly on the outside then your inside will follow - its always been a copycat anyway. To be happy you must act happy. I have been batteling the question recently if with experience(the so said mother of all teachers) comes a cynasistic attitude about the world and the people in it? I don't know really, but I do know that we can choose to feel bubbly or at the very least act like it; fake it till you make it baby, that's what I'll be trying to do at least. I just thought I'd share because I tried that today and acting turned into reality and I had wonderful joy filled day, here's to your joy filled day, week, month, life to come. God loves and god blesses.

too bad I can only use his title once. Fridays are great yes but I love this song that says "Sunday aleluhia its not so far away, yeah its Friday but Sunday is comming." why do we get so excited when Friday comes around but we just drudge ourselves to church on sunday. Why is it that we don't get jazzed about Sundays? I love Fridays just as much as the next person but I also think that Sundays need to be celebrated more as well - take a day and spend time with god and your family.

Today is a tired busy day, but I did want to quick write something. Nomatter how bad you feel and how tired you are there is always somewhere worse that you can be. You could be in Tailand being captured by the Chinese, you could be in Iraq not clearing a path through your house but pushing away dead bodies, or you could be slowly and painfully starving to death in Ethiopia. Remember, it can always get worse, and in the great scheme of things, nomatter what is going on during the day, we are very lucky. Live Strong.

today was just one of those days, not where anything goes wrong really, but where you still feel just a little off. I wrote yesterday about feeling empty and I said that I would write something about how to get full, but it might not be what you would expect. It is easy to say that Jesus can fill any hole that you might have, but it is harder to really understand how to fully grasp this concept. My new favorite verse is jerimiah 29:13 which says something like,"if you seek me with all of your heart you will find me. This verse made me smile and feel comforted at the time, but it made me realize that even though I've found him and I logically know that he is always there, it is hard for me to always feel like he is with me. Now as a good Christian I know that Jesus is always with me, but it is hard because sometimes all I need is a hug, but Jesus cannot physically give me one. I'm not trying to put down God, because if I still sometes feel alone and empty with him, I can only imagine how it would be without him. However, I am saying that sometimes every piece of my puzzle is not there. I wish that I could tell you how to fix it, but I can't. But, I know that I am not the only one who feels this way, because people are runnning around involving themselves in as much as possible so as to keep themselves from truly feeling or thinking about anything. What I do is to say a quick prayer and force myself to get up and sing a song or dance around my room - that may sound like a trivial or even childish thing to do, and I can't even say that it always works - because it doesn't, but it is worth a shot. Remember, when you feel alone or empty there are alwyas other people that feel the same way that you do, or at the very least you have me. Sometimes all we need is a hug, that phyisical reasurance that someone is there who cares about you. Until I figure out the secret I offer you cyber hugs and I give you the reasurence that God is always there. If you don't feel him sometimes it just may be that you are not concentrating hard enough. Close your eyes and just slow down and look inward,if you look and feel deep enough you will be able to feel God's arms wraping around you in a loving fatherly embrace. Do as Rafecky told Simba in the Lion King and "look harder", if you follow his wise advice I guarente that you will find some peace. (side effects do include the possiblity of still feeling lonely, but they also include re possiblity of feeling full.) until next we meet

This is my first blog ever, I'm halfway excited and halfway scared. I'm not sure how this is going to look or what people will think, but I have'nt ever been much to care what other people think, so, here goes - or I guess it has technically already started. I am a generally nice person, hardly patient, and sometimes pretty person who tries to do the right thing. I am writting this not to tell you what to do (even though this is conected to a ministry), I am merely writting this to tell you what I do and to relay my random observations about those experiences and just things in general. Today I was in a good mood not really because anything terriblly wonderful happened, but just because i felt that I looked good. That is probally a silly reason, but it is true, when I look good - or at least think I look good - then my day seems to go better. Today I was listening (by the way, I should probally confess - if you haven't already figured it out yet - that I am a horrible speller, sorry. Not to fear though, I have pleanty of flaws that more than overshadow my lack of spelling skill. Anyway, I was listening to this song today and a few of the lines went like this "are you lost or inncomplete, do you feel like a puzzle who can't find it's missing piece?". Do you feel like that, even some of the time?, I know that I do. Sometimes I feel empty and inncomplete which is a topic that I would like to continue to discuss tomorrow because for right now I am exausted and more than ready to go to bed. But real fast I'll give you some food for thought. Are there times that you feel more empty or inncomplete at certain times and around certain peple? Why? We will talk more tomorrow about how to "be full" - as taco bell says. The buffet is open for everyone, and I don't know about you, but I'm always game for a good meal!