The Princess Diaries

today was just one of those days, not where anything goes wrong really, but where you still feel just a little off. I wrote yesterday about feeling empty and I said that I would write something about how to get full, but it might not be what you would expect. It is easy to say that Jesus can fill any hole that you might have, but it is harder to really understand how to fully grasp this concept. My new favorite verse is jerimiah 29:13 which says something like,"if you seek me with all of your heart you will find me. This verse made me smile and feel comforted at the time, but it made me realize that even though I've found him and I logically know that he is always there, it is hard for me to always feel like he is with me. Now as a good Christian I know that Jesus is always with me, but it is hard because sometimes all I need is a hug, but Jesus cannot physically give me one. I'm not trying to put down God, because if I still sometes feel alone and empty with him, I can only imagine how it would be without him. However, I am saying that sometimes every piece of my puzzle is not there. I wish that I could tell you how to fix it, but I can't. But, I know that I am not the only one who feels this way, because people are runnning around involving themselves in as much as possible so as to keep themselves from truly feeling or thinking about anything. What I do is to say a quick prayer and force myself to get up and sing a song or dance around my room - that may sound like a trivial or even childish thing to do, and I can't even say that it always works - because it doesn't, but it is worth a shot. Remember, when you feel alone or empty there are alwyas other people that feel the same way that you do, or at the very least you have me. Sometimes all we need is a hug, that phyisical reasurance that someone is there who cares about you. Until I figure out the secret I offer you cyber hugs and I give you the reasurence that God is always there. If you don't feel him sometimes it just may be that you are not concentrating hard enough. Close your eyes and just slow down and look inward,if you look and feel deep enough you will be able to feel God's arms wraping around you in a loving fatherly embrace. Do as Rafecky told Simba in the Lion King and "look harder", if you follow his wise advice I guarente that you will find some peace. (side effects do include the possiblity of still feeling lonely, but they also include re possiblity of feeling full.) until next we meet